I found myself going back to the memories stored in the past and I wish I hadn’t. So many times I was there for you and so was my family yet to have you there or let alone your family it was too much to ask. It hurts to see now its as if its nothing and put something up on a golden stool. Yeah nothing is right but who am I to say something right? I can give 0 fucks because I know that im a better person than it’ll ever be. I’ll be dammed if I ever have the same reactions or affect from others. Im pretty sure I was raises a little more classier than that but what’s done is done and I’ve learned that no matter how good it seems to be…its all bullshit. Trust no one.
I guess its only right to acknowledge the fact that so much has change yet it has been the same. No matter how much you try to stay away from the negativity it all comes crawling back. Yeah the positive view in everything helps but what else is there to it when you get tired of that. I guess in others words, the people that have walked out of my life did so for a reason and obviously the ones who stayed around till this very moment actually matter and are there for a reason, right?
Back on this game hmmm lets see how this goes this time around ;)
Time and time goes by and I guess im just wasting my time. For as much as I try to stay positive I think I’ve reached my limit. I can’t do this anymore. Im tired and just ready to leave and start fresh. If I could have 1 wish it would be that. To pack up everything leave and just have a new place,new people and new life. I believe in 2nd chances obviously Ive witnessed the bad in them but I know I wouldn’t waste mine at all. I know what I want and I don’t plan on stopping for anyone or anything for it. I’ve left my mark and its about that time to walk away. In order words my work here is done. :*
